This post is very personal- read at your own risk.
I have no more pictures from the Hawaii trip (yet) but I want to get back to writing because I have so much to say and I want to remember these days. Or maybe I don't.
The last time I wrote (April?!) I was planning some de-cluttering and trying to get a big list out of the way and done by the end of the year. I have gone through all of my fall clothing and some of my winter so that part is done. I still need to go through all of my sweaters and boots. I got my kitchen and laundry room cabinets cleaned and new shelf paper down. I hope to have the cabinets painted next year. I hung new curtains in the kitchen and living room. I am slowly cleaning the basement and preparing it for guests while getting stuff together for a garage sale.
One of the things on my list was a visit to the doctor. Because I have not had a yearly female (we like to say hoo ha) appt. for 8 years (I know, my husband has lectured me for years) but my doctor moved away and I didn't like her replacement and I live in a small town and we don't have a female gynecologist and blah blah blah.
The past 2 years, I have had terrible periods (sorry if this is offensive, you can stop here) which have only gotten worse. My cramps and back hurt so bad I would be in bed all day, which is hard to do if you have a job. Advil and a heating pad were (still are) my best friend and I actually sleep with a heating pad under my lower back every night. My back and hips and legs and also my lower pelvis still ache after my period is over and I have other side effects like having to pee all the time and feeling really full after eating just a small amount sometimes.
I am an expert google doctor and WebMD is the most used app on my phone but I was pretty sure I had some sort of terminal illness so I didn't look it up and instead, got my ass to the doctor. (Well, that and my husband said he would not work one more day for me until I made and appt.) I called my regular doctor who recommended an OB/GYN (male) with 2 female nurse practitioners so I would never have to see the male doctor unless I needed surgery.
I had my appointment which turned into several appointments throughout September. I had a pap test, blood tests for everything from HIV and STD's to thyroid and blood sugar. I had a mammogram. All normal. After explaining the pain and bleeding issues to the nurse practitioner (whom I adore!) an ultrasound was ordered. An internal and external ultrasound. Good times. Then I waited. And worried.
Thursday was my appointment.
I love my doctor. He is actually a customer of ours and took his time explaining what was going on with me and all of my options, costs and time lost from work. He knows we have a business and the work I do. He answered all of our (yes, my husband was there) questions and eased my mind.
He said I have a golf ball sized myoma, or fibroid tumor, in my uterus which is most likely compressing a bundle of nerves in my back. I also have adenomyosis. My uterus is also enlarged (from adenomyosis, childbirth, age or other reasons) which causes the full feeling and pain as well.
There are a number of things you can do but fibroids can grow back and I am finished having children and I don't want to this all over again so I opted for a hysterectomy. I will not go into early menopause since they plan to leave my ovaries (unless they get in there and find more problems) and my doctor has done thousands of these surgeries. His only concern is that I am a bleeding risk because of the enlarged uterus but he has to inform you of all the risks.
I booked the surgery for Nov. 18. The day after my son's girlfriend (story for another day) gets here from Germany to spend a month with us. A week before Thanksgiving (which I host).
I had to have it by the end of the year for insurance purposes, work reasons (an employee of ours has the same problem and needs to take time off too plus we are losing a manager and will need to hire one) and honestly, I am sick of being in near constant pain. I will be unable to work for at least a month and possibly up to 8 weeks depending on how I recover and how bad it is when they get in there. I have never had surgery, never been put under. I will have to rely on people to clean my house, take care of me, take care of the dogs and deal with all of the holiday crap.
I am making lists of all the things I need to do by then. Get the basement ready for guests, have a garage sale, clean the garage, shop for Thanksgiving and get my Halloween decor down and fall decor out. I ordered some new jammies and lounge clothes so when people are here, I won't have to wear my ratty house clothes. I am investing in some dry shampoo because I hate dirty hair. I ordered new sheets and a new comforter because that was on my list for winter and now seems like a good time. I am picking up books to read and I will never run out of Netflix shows and dvd's. And I am working on the house room by room to organize it so that it can be easily cleaned. I plan to follow doctors orders because I need to heal fast and get back to my life.
And I hope to get back to blogging.
Maybe I will have some good stories for you. And maybe I can get the rest of my Hawaii pictures posted.
Monday, May 4, 2015
|Morning two brought sun and blue skies|
We walked around and took some photos of the gorgeous resort.
We had a beach/pool day. The beach was crowded but we really didn't care. Soaked up lots of sun and watched people. (And although I put sunscreen on pretty often, it wasn't enough and I got pretty burned.)
|I was trying to talk over the noisy waves, that is sand on my arm|
In the winter months, the ocean is pretty rough at this resort (our other hotel was worse) but we did find calm beaches elsewhere. I swam in the ocean very little because the waves would knock me down and salt and sand would get in my eyes.
For dinner, we had reservations (for our Maui anniversary dinner) at the restaurant on property we had been dying to try but they were extremely busy and we got ignored and forgotten so we left (with me in tears- R had really wanted to have a anniversary dinner on each island and had put a lot of thought into it). The front desk clerk (who was mortified and apologized many times) recommended Duo, a restaurant next door at The Four Seasons. It definitely made up for the earlier part of the evening.
R took these before we left for dinner.
|Bathroom selfie to fix my makeup. I picked up my tunic in Paia, my sandals, purse and jeans were all bought for the trip.|
Our server was amazing. Probably one of the best we have ever had. She gave us all kinds of ideas on where to eat, the best beaches and where the locals liked to go. She was born in Lanai and moved to Maui for work.
|Everyone got cotton candy for dessert, green apple|
The next morning we headed out early to take her recommendation for breakfast.
This was the Maui version of our restaurant. We stood in line for quite awhile to order, then found a table outside. There were baby chicks everywhere. It is crazy how many chickens run free in Hawaii. Maui was nothing compared to Kauai.
|We shared this huge cinnamon roll|
|R's crab omelette|
There were several lookout areas on the Road to Hana. This, I think, is Keanae Park. This was my favorite because the ocean was unbelievable. The sunshine (after months of gloom and cold) combined with the shades of blue and the dark lava rocks was just surreal.
This guy was doing some wood carvings in one of these lookout areas. We ended up buying one for good luck and prosperity (each one had a different meaning)
There were several people with tables out selling locally made jewelry. I really wanted one of the necklaces but it was very pricey and she wouldn't go down much on it.
We passed bamboo forests, taro plants, waterfalls, flower and fruit stands and many hiking trails. We missed the black sand beach and Mama's Fish House (I was not ready to eat yet!)
Looks like one lane. In truth it was two, but so narrow there was no room for error.
We made it back with plenty of time for showers and dinner at Monkey Pod (thanks for the recommendation Carrie!) where we had truffle fries, lobster pizza and the best mai tai I have ever had.
|He was carrying my purse because my sunburn was starting to become very painful, should have brought my clutch.|
Are you tired of pictures yet? If so, you might want to go because there are so many more......