Our lives have been turned upside down the last couple of weeks.
I don't want to get into any specific details today because I don't have the energy. I will say that my MIL's cancer is more advanced than I first believed it to be and the prognosis from a medical standpoint is grim.
Still, she has an appt. back at Barnes Jewish a week from tomorrow to discuss all of their test findings and at that time they will set up an appt. with a local oncologist.Let me be very clear that we are not giving up. Miracles happen and doctors are mistaken every day. We are also not naive, God already knows the outcome and he is in control.
The big one has been back at home and still works for us. He is doing his own laundry, helping around the house and is easier to get along with. He is also still messy and short tempered at times with his brother and I but for the most part, it has been a huge change. If I can get him to work on the mess in the garage that he left when he dumped his many containers of college crap (clothes, dishes, food, sheets and towels, school supplies and dorm decor) soon, we will dance in victory. He is getting a tough lesson in the price of gasoline and I have limited his trips to friends and such. He is going to bed at normal hours because work starts at 8am and he doesn't want to set a bad example since he is the bosses kid. He stopped taking his prescription allergy drops at college last fall and is having a time of it. Since he missed so many doses, he is back to Zyrtec and Allegra D.
The little one has the beginning of a sinus infection. He went to the doctor today and started an antibiotic and some Zyrtec. Allergy season is bad so far this year at my house. We are using saline spray, neti pots, OTC allergy meds and steam facials like crazy.
Let me say that there is much nose blowing at any given time around here with the snot twins.
The little one got his ACT results and class ring last week. We will try to improve his score a few points with the tutor we had for the big one. His ring is so awesome! He had a competition last week for his German 2 class and did very well. School is out at the end of this month and he is so ready but his grades are amazing and we are very proud. He wants to go on a camping trip with a few friends this weekend (on some land that one of his friends has)
The big one said, "aren't there bears?" and my husband answered with, "nah, just coyotes and cougars" to which the big one replied, "older women in the wilderness looking for young guys? look out" HA!
My husband's sister came from New Jersey Friday to surprise us and spend time with their mom. She has 3 little kids and had to get back home today.We had a nice visit and she had a hard time leaving.
My MIL's sister has been here since Thursday and plans to stay as long as she is needed. This takes a lot of worry off of us so we can try to work out the many kinks at work. She helped my MIL with my FIL when he was diagnosed with cancer years ago and they are very close.
It doesn't look like we will be able to get away this month after all. Eureka Springs is going to have to miss us!
The weather is improving again this week. The rain seems to be gone and the sun is out.
My husband has to get his gallbladder out within the next 3 months. They found some polyps in it right after his tick illness and the doctor has a concern that the polyps could turn to cancer so it needs to go.
I have somehow messed up my back. It is the lower right side and wow, it hurts to sit, stand, lift or sleep. I have been using Motrin and Advil and sleep with the heating pad on my side all night.
I have been so tired lately. I handle stress badly and sleep is the way I deal with it. I get up, take the little one to school and go back to bed. On days I work, I come home and take a nap. I get up in time to feed the dogs and the kids and then I am exhausted again and go to bed. I sleep badly and wake up all through the night. Then I wake up tired and start over. I bought workout clothes and charged my iPod and loaded it with good songs to walk to but I am literally too tired to think and barely make it upstairs to my bed. If anyone has any advice (no antidepressants please) I will take it. A friend suggested vitamins D and B but I don't know how much to take and what form.
I need to get to bed.